i really dunno what is going to happen to my life if i continue doing this...i am not sure of what i want out of life...im so comfortable that im afraid of change...i look forward to nothing...i am not even sure of wat i want to become...i always wanted to be a doctor...but definitely that has change because i have changed myself...i always had that thought that i was great...life was perfect nothing could change...life was going to be like this forever...basically a stagnent life...no improvment....

i am the youngest.....so i guess i have what people will say the advantage of having some attention from the parents...but i dont really like that...my siblings have done things that sometimes i would have disappointed my parents...but they have also made my parents proud of them....i am expected not to do the wrongs but do the rights...my parents would have preferred all of my elder siblings to go to college...but they didnt...so now its my turn...im feeling the pressure of fufilling thei dream to see at least one of us had managed to go to college...but i dont want that...i would rather do something that i like...and it would mean a lot to me if they could support me in whatever i choose to do...

i may not be the best among all...but i would like to do something that would help the family in one way or another...have a profession that is unique...maybe self-employed...that would be fun...that's the trend now...but maybe when my time comes it would be a different trend...so i will just keep my fingers crossed and hope for the best!!:)