is a deadly combination.

being angry and confused and fearful is irritating!
it tires you out and you don't know how to feel even.if someone were to ask me how i'm feeling,i think my brain will explode trying to answer that question.

i hate being like this.i can be so angry and not care what happens next but at the next moment,i'll be so confused that i keep playing the same scenarios over and over in my mind in an effort to make sense of everything.then,when i start to fear losing something or someone,i'll just collapse and submerged in my tears.

this sucks big time!!
i want to get out of this god forsaken phase...and only way is to see


his smile!!